@Ratcaller @BadMedicine Think we might be getting there to some degree. I have a taste of this every now and then when I feel true proper empty. Pure void. So I try to pump myself with wild ideas I could achieve and trying to spray some insanity, fun and good vibes around for the hell of it. Its getting harder and harder to stay in the mindset over time but I like to believe I still got it and I refuse to lose in this scenario. Doing dumb stuff, taking risks, loving myself and share some of the love for other people is the only thing left for me, without that, I'll become that wandering shell I'm afraid of :3
Madness and stupidity are like food and drink for me.
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Hell yea I agree, sometimes you feel like you have to detach and never let yourself become liquid just like many other people, everything is so superficial to them, everything is replaceable that nothing else matters... I used to allow them to affect me but tides change, I've never felt so empty and my exhaust valve to this is being isolated, having fun with myself and trying to understand more of me, playing games, drawing and doing funny stuff. In this quarantine, I think that those who were close to me now can understand me, the isolation that was despised is now practised and when I stop to think about it, it makes me feel more confortable.
@Ratcaller @BadMedicine @BadMedicine Just stay active and think of anything to do now that you might have time for it, the bad shit might get to you every now and then but don't let it take over. It's a handy skill to learn how to be on your own for longer periods of time. From my experience you cant master it completely since you always reach the point where you need to vent, or share with someone or go into completely abandoned state, but that will pass too.
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Do you believe we become empty wandering shells without purpose or compassion?